Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Another New Phase Begins....

thinking about the future, i wonder what it's going to look like. reason why i said this; all the plans that we've made, need to be planned again.why? my partner is going to live far from me..he's pursuing his dream...and eventually i have to sacrifice a few things. make it this way..be hurt before you heal...

the truth is, i really don't share his passion..but because he really thinks this is the only way to survive, he'll do it anyway. yet i wonder live without him all the time. being alone with my baby girl really bugs me..scared? yes indeed. tortured? definitely a fact...i don't do well alone...but to have a better future (as he said it), i have to follow his lead..

one more thing...my resolution for 2008 has partially fulfilled...i finally bought my own house..i repeat..MY OWN HOUSE!!! another major phase...but not to share it everyday with my dear really hurts me..the enthusiasm runs sour...ahh well..at least i have a place i called home and a man i called husband...what else do i want?