mimpi yang aku sgt benci

salam...

last night after g makan KFC at ECM, balik lah kami ke umah...tired sbb nurin mengamuk for a thousand times already...but thank God Aqil was behaving himself perfectly, sleeping soundly in the car.

malamnyer.....
aku boleh mimpi MR was having an affair...a very affair yang menggugat kestabilan rumahtangga kami..cewah! aku mengamuk...baling2 barang lagi taw! pastu MR siap bawak lagi his lover (adus sakit hati aku!)

he confronted me..telling me what i did that made him changed his mind....to have somebody else in his life...apa daaaaa....but it was so damn real....menggila lah aku kan (hanya dlm mimpi...)

but the situation was so sad and stressed...MR was very stern..never i saw him even in real life dia setegas itew...menakutkan!!

suddenly i woke up (right in the middle of the dream exactly masa i baru nk balas balik kata2 MR..) gasping for air! no tears thank God!...but it was horrfying, lagi menakutkan dari Ju On!

Ya ALLAH, ampuni dosaku...semoga kebahagiaan rumahtangga ini kekal selamanya...ameen...

supermassive black hole

Ooh, baby don't you know I suffer?
Oh, baby can you hear me moan?
You caught me under false pretenses
How long before you let me go?

Ooh, you set my soul alight
Ooh, you set my soul alight

Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(Ooh, you set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(Ooh, you set my soul)

I thought I was a fool for no one
But ooh, baby I'm a fool for you
You're the queen of the superficial
And how long before you tell the truth?

Ooh, you set my soul alight
Ooh, you set my soul alight

Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(Ooh, you set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(Ooh, you set my soul)

Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole

Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive

Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(Ooh, you set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(Ooh, you set my soul)

Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole

why?

salam...

kenapa perlu sampai nak berperang? tak tahu ke kita serumpun...keperluan sesama kita itu ada..ko perlu aku and eventually aku pun perlu ko...

kenapa perlu perang padahal bende sekecil zarah pun nk diheboh hebohkan....

ko tau tak apa itu kongsi? yang ko tahu kongsi gelap yg ko suka sgt buat di tempat aku..

sudah2 lah bergadoh...tak guna..lebih2 lagi kalu ko pun juga agama ISLAM...lagi tak guna!!

aku tak mahu perang..sudah2 lah dgn perangai berperang yg ko bwk ke tempat aku...sudah2 lah merosakkan sesama manusia..

aku benci perang!

tapi jika berlaku juga perang..aku doakan supaya yg jahat itu mati dulu.....

updates

salam...

on wednesday we went for aqil hafiy's fifth medical check up...

he is officially 7.5kg, 64cm in height...getting bigger day by day..

but what i'm afraid of now is his sister...tantrums are running wild..sometimes i couldn't cope with her naughtiness...seriously annoying!

i lost temper most of the time. nak wt camne..she only wanted me doing everything for her..dia tak mau her father buat...aku kepenatan...dgn household lagi...jaga aqil lagi...ayoyo tiring...the list goes on and on....

camne nk cool her tantrums down even just a bit? crying througout the nights...aku yg jadi reckless n impossible to get a good quality sleep...

still trying to figure out how to overcome this....*sigh*